Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Silent & Understand...

aku tatau samada ape aku rs skrg ni disbbkn aku PMS or anything else...but I NEED MORE ATTENTION!! rs cam nk menjerit sekuat hati tapi tak terkluar & nobody listen...bile aku cube cakap ape yg terbuku kat hati ni, respond yg aku dapat hanye memahami, memahami dan trus memahami...aku manusia biase cam org lain ade hati & perasaan..aku tak kesah nk memahamkn cume smpi bile??smpi hati aku dh dimakan & dimamah??
aku tak suke bercerite pade sesiape...kat cni je la pon tmpt aku nk melepaskan segale nyer...aku tanak jdkn org lain sebagai mangse keadaan...dgn family lg, arrrrrrrrrrgghhhhh~
aku tahu Dia menduga aku kerane utk menguji tahap kesabaran & keimanan aku kepade-Nya...tapi smpi bile aku mampu bertahan?? aku kene harunginya smpi akhir hayat aku ker??aku ni tade impian ke??aku tade ape yg aku mahukn dlm hidop ker??sume hasil titik peluh payah utk aku nikmati...ya! aku tahu aku ade tgggjwb??tapi cane dgn org yg sepatutnya lebih bertggjwb jlnkn amanah yg Allah berikan pade dia?? perit yg aku rskn dlm hati ni tak sape yg tahu...senyuman yg terukir tuh cume satu penipuan yg berjaye mempengaruhi mereka2 di luar sane...sumenyer utk menutup kesedihan yg aku rs...tp Alhamdulillah...aku still bernafas di bumi-Mu ini ya Allah...akan ku teruskan perjalanan hidup biar apa pun dugaan yg Kau limpahkn pade ku...aku redha...sesunguhnya pada Kau tempat aku mengadu...

Friday, January 22, 2010

Demmit! I don't understand!

Its quite a loooooooooooooooooong time i didn't write sumthin' on my blog...Don't hv much time plus sumtime I forgot dat I got my own blog other than my biz blog...whatever it is, life have to be go on...


Ah! I felt so demmit about myself! I don't know y! I don't know how to respect other's feeling especially him! So stupid of me! Too many prob I lurve to make...Smlm bergaduh dgn sorg minah bwk kete neyh...I felt so angry n I dun care if I have to fight with her even beside the road...This how I want to show to those ppl yg xde budi bahse! I give my signal n bring out my hand but still dat stupid lady wat derk jerk...I know it will be my fault if i dun gave any signal...PLS LA! jgn nk tnjk samseng coz u r only drive Malaysian car like mine! Pastuh nk memekak blkg n bile lampu hijau br ko nk pndg2 muke nk wat kerek! Tanak lak selari dgn kete aku! Wat the samseng Malaysian...Mane nyer smgt 1 Malaysia awk?? PLS LAAA..~


Whatever it is, lately I feel soooo depressed n tension...I feel like to kick or punch someone...who can be my volunteer??